Unseen Worth

”It was the other way around.” at that saying of Alexander my eyes literally widened in shock.

I couldn’t believe I looked at him. I never thought that Aius’ sister is the type of girl who’ll cheat. She looks so kind and innocent.

”You can’t believe, too, right?”

”Why did she cheated ... if ah..you don’t mind telling it to me?”

”Because I’m incapable as a man.” he said, he’s voice is shivering. And his eyes are about to cry but he’s stopping himself.

”W-what do you mean?” Even with the idea I had I still asked.

”I’m incapable of giving her children. That she badly wants. At first it was okay for us to adopt a baby that we can treat as our own, but then things messed up. I just woke up one morning that she’s slipping away form me. Until one day ... one day ... I just discovered that she’s .... she’s pregnant. And I’m a hundred percent sure that it wasn’t mine, ’cause I’m sick. But you know what? I still accept her after she asked for forgiveness and beg for me to stay with her. But what else can I do ... she fell out of love, I know it very well. I can feel it. And I know .... I know that she ... ”Alexander couldn’t finish what he was going to say because his tears kept dripping.

”She’s already inlove to the father of her child, but she can’t tell it to me. She can’t let me go, ’cause she knew that there’s a possibility that’ll kill myself. I know she’s suffering so hard with me. So I made up with my mind and go with my plan. If she can’t let me go ... I will make a way for her to separate me. For the latter I will turn out to be bad. I dated lots of different girls, I went home drunk every night. ” He’s crying hard while telling all of his sufferings from the past.

I was just quietly listening to him, I was also just quietly watching him cry and somehow I could feel his pain. It makes my heart ache too.

”And then, finally she broke up with me. She told me she’s tired of me and such. She wanted to leave me alone, and I just let her. That’s my plan, by the way. To let her leave me. But I guess letting her go is a wrong decision. ”

”Why?”

”She went to the one who got her pregnant, but then the jerk isn’t in love with her, that fucking jerk. She ordered the abortion, and because she already loves that man, she followed the stupid man’s wishes. She aborted the innocent child. He’s so fucking selfish! I should have fathered the child. Then you know what’s the worst? Huh? That is the time that Aius’sister committed suicide because of too much depression, she got depressed after she aborted her child. Guilt hunt her. And I feel like I’m a fucking useless husband. I should have stopped her. I love her so much. Aius is so mad at me to the point that he didn’t allow me to attend her sister’s funeral. ” Alexander sobbed as he recounted them.

I never thought that Alexander is suffering too much. I thought he was fine, I thought he had no problem.

I could do nothing but stand on the bed and hug him. I also cried because of the pain and pity I felt for him.

”Don’t blame yourself, you just did what you knew was right and good. Whatever happened to Aius’s sister, it was her fault when she got pregnant. Don’t take all the blame.” I just said then I let him cry and cry until he calmed down.

To be continued...