Death Guns In Another World

”You always say that,” He grumbled. She finished off her margarita in silence. Damon had offered his heart to her many times, but she just couldnʼt accept it. He had thought he was in love with different people so many times just to end up realizing it was either all physical or that there was some obscure problem in the relationship.

Maria had watched him nearly commit suicide to hear him talk about how he was hot stuff when he was secretly dating two girls at once.

”So you donʼt think youʼll ever find love?” Damon asked doubtfully. She sighed.

”No, I never will. And I know youʼre going to ask why so Iʼll tell you. Because when I find someone Iʼm attracted to Iʼll always be questioning myself and wondering if Iʼm truly in love or not. Sooner or later in the relationship, Iʼll question myself to the point where I give up on it and decide itʼs not love. Then the relationship will be over, and Iʼll feel terrible for ending it.

Then my entire life will be off for a while, and Iʼd rather just bypass that part,” Maria said. It was hard for Damon to follow that in his drunken state, but he concentrated and tried to figure out what she was saying.

”You need to stop thinking,” Damon said with a surly look on his face.

”Thatʼs my problem,” Maria stated simply, ”I just canʼt.”

”You could just order a hard liquor, down it, we go back to my place, maybe have a beer, and see where it goes,” Damon offered.

”Damon,” She warned.

”I know, I know, Iʼm taking it too far, arenʼt I Maria?” He replied bitterly. Despite the fact he was completely wasted now, his eyes were bright with emotion.

”Youʼre not going to remember this,” Maria sighed and reminded him.

”And in the morning youʼll be desperately trying to remember why youʼre feeling regret.”

”You think youʼre right all the time? Donʼt you?” Damon asked. He was on the edge of making a scene, but he held it back. One more drink though and he wouldnʼt be able to hold it back.

”Iʼm right about most things, Damon,” Maria said. Damon laughed once, and the noise was startling to Maria because it was so deep and full of bitter feelings.

”You werenʼt right that one time I told you turkeys could run twenty-five miles an hour and you were like, ʼNo they canʼtʼ and I was like, ʼLetʼs bet on itʼ and we did and I was right,” Damon slurred. She laughed and finished off her drink.

”That was some year ago,” She said. Damon merely shrugged his shoulders.

”Doesnʼt change the fact that youʼre not always right,” He replied.

”You sound like a little child,” Maria said.

”You sound like an eighty-year-old woman,” He retorted. They both sat in sunken silence for a moment. At the same time, they sighed and checked the clock on their phones. It was two in the morning.

”Iʼve to go back before they find out that Iʼve sneaked out yet again, Iʼve a work tomorrow morning, Iʼve to help my father,” Maria said. She gathered her purse and slipped her fuzzy black coat on. She wrapped a lovely red scarf around her neck and slipped her purse over her shoulder.

Damonʼs eyes still lounged on the ground and as he slowly looked up he took in her long legs that were covered in tight jeans and black boots and her fit upper body that was hidden under her coat.

”Do I need to call a taxi for you?” She asked.

”No, you know I only live five blocks from here; I can walk,” He replied. He slowly stood up and walked out with Maria. The ground was a little bit blurred, but he could make it home before heʼd crash. They stood outside the dim bar for a second. Damon looked into Mariaʼs concerned eyes and then decided to take advantage of the moment. He quickly kissed her on the lips and pulled back within a moment.

Maria stood there like a statue, but instead of being mad, she just sighed.

”I didnʼt feel anything, Damon,” She said softly. Damon nodded once and turned to leave.

”I hope you will one day, Maria,” He whispered under his breath. And as Maria watched his slumped body leave, she silently hoped that one day she would too.

And indeed she would later find love somewhere unexpected.

Damon had to move out shortly because of his unrequited love, he vowed to come back stronger, as a better man to conquer Maria no matter what it would take.

Because he left so silently, Maria had forgotten about him, no longer thinking of him.