Chosen by Fate, Rejected by the Alpha

Chapter 239 - SIDE STORIES BOOK 1- CARTER AND EMMALEE CHAPTER 3

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Carter

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I ran for hours. I didnʼt go back to my apartment that I had in Bryceʼs territory. I just ran and ran. I needed to only run at night and hide during the day since I was in my wolf form, and that meant that I didnʼt have any clothes.

I didnʼt mind the prolonged time in my wolf state. It gave me time to get my frustrations out. I just needed to destroy a few cave walls during the day, or knock down a few trees. It didnʼt help all that much but it was still better than wallowing in my human mind all the time.

My wolf had whined incessantly since I had run away from my mate. After this trip back home was over I was going to have to avoid being in my wolf form for a very long time.

It took me two and a half days in all to get back home, being limited as I was with travel time. I went straight to my familyʼs house in the compound, I needed a shower and some sleep. And when I woke up in the morning, I would have to go straight to see the alpha.

Iʼm certain that Reece wouldnʼt be happy with me for leaving Bryceʼs pack so soon, but there was nothing I could do about it. I couldnʼt be found out and I was the one who sacrificed the most during this mission.

Iʼm just glad that my mate didnʼt see or smell me. I couldnʼt bear it if she had noticed me and was suffering like I am. To know that I was causing her this kind of pain and sorrow, that would tear me apart.

I shifted back and climbed through my bedroom window, glad that I had my own private bathroom. I didnʼt want to see or talk to my parents right now. I didnʼt need to hear any ʼitʼll all work outʼ babble. Right now all I wanted to do was take a hot shower, crawl into bed, and cry myself to sleep, which I hadnʼt done since I was a little kid.

The water was scalding hot. Too hot to stand really. I had hoped that it would numb me and burn away my ability to ever feel again. But it didnʼt and soon I left standing in water that was slowly turning cold.

I crawled out of the shower and barely dried off before I crawled, naked, into my bed. I couldnʼt get comfortable at all. I tossed, turned, and hugged my pillow for hours before I finally drifted into an uneasy sleep.

I had very bad dreams when I did finally sleep.

I dreamt that my mate found someone else. I dreamt that once I settled this stuff with Trinity and I was finally able to try and work things out I was too late. I dreamt that I had to watch from afar as the only woman there was for me grew old loving another man, raising his kids, and I just wasted away into nothingness.

”Carter?” I woke to the sound of someone pounding on my door. ”Carter!?” Mom was yelling at me from the otherside. ”Carter answer me if you donʼt want your mother seeing how much youʼve grown.” I groaned as I shook my head, shaking the sleep from my eyes and my mouth. Mom knew I always slept naked, ever since she walked in on me when I was fifteen and was able to last assess my development, I didnʼt want a repeat of that now.

”What?” I yelled at the door.

”Donʼt you what me in that tone boy.” She reprimanded my angry tone of voice.

”I was sleeping, Ma.”

”I know that. And I also know youʼre supposed to be on a mission right now, so why the heck are you home?”

”I needed to get out of there. Donʼt worry, I am planning on seeing Reece today and explaining what happened.”

”You had better, if you bring any trouble to your cousin with all thatʼs happened lately, so help me boy I will whoop you.”

”You realize Iʼm too big for that, donʼt you mom?”

”Shut it! Youʼre never too big for me to bend over my knee, boy, do you hear me.” My mom really was scary sometimes.

”Iʼm not going to cause trouble Mom, I swear.”

I groaned again as I rolled out of bed. I felt too tired to even move, but I had to force myself. I needed another shower. A cold one this time so that it could wake me up. I shuffled my feet until I got to the bathroom and took a shower with the water as cold as I could stand it.

Once I was dressed and forced myself to eat something for breakfast, or was it lunch time now, it was time for me to head to the Alphaʼs estate. I didnʼt want to rush this meeting into happening sooner than it had to so I decided to walk, slowly, to the house. Walking, slowly, up that long, winding driveway through the woods.