Sleepless Hearts

She halted on her step, holding the door open with one hand, and without any emotion in her voice, I heard her cold reply, ”Then I guess it’s a goodbye, Daniel!”

And then she walked out on me for the second time in the week while I sat there like a defeated man watching my love go away from me.

I didn’t know for how many seconds, minutes, and hours I just sat there with my tears cascading down. My blurry vision now started to make it difficult for me to look around, but wiping off my eyes, I stood up angrily.

”Ah,” I punched the nearby wall with my fist, and then like a wounded tiger, marching towards my big mahogany desk, I knocked Everything out from the table.

From my laptop to pens to files everything was lying on the floor but that wasn’t enough to cool me down.

Further, I crashed the chairs, couch, and big velvet sofas along with the coffee maker that was kept on the side. The only thing that I wanted was the destruction of everything around me.

If the pain that I went through since my high school graduation night wasn’t enough to turn me into this maddening man, then these twenty-four hours were definitely enough to bring me to my worst.

Or was it wrong because I recalled being madder than this last week and it turned things against me, but it wasn’t my fault, I was scared because of the last encounter of...

Once I was done destroying Everything around, I looked around my cabin which was shattered completely but not more than me. Making my way through the discarded things, towards the small refrigerator which was the only thing that was left untouched here, I grabbed a bottle of whiskey and gulped it down in one go.

The liquor burnt my throat as much as my heart was burning at the present but at that moment nothing mattered to me. I wanted to drown myself in this alcohol to forget everything that I have gone through.

”Sir...,” I heard someone’s stammering voice coming from the front, but I didn’t dare to look in the direction.

”Sir...

”Can’t you see that I am in no position to talk. Get the hell out!!” I yelled throwing away the liquor bottle on the ground making it break into pieces.

I heard someone’s gasp and raising my eyes from the broken bottle pieces, I saw Nathan standing behind Jenna. His fear was visible in his eyes but at that moment it wasn’t making me feel anything.

Ignoring the occupants, I grabbed another bottle and began drinking without even bothering someone else. At that moment I forgot purposely that Nathan was my responsibility because I knew if I went near him, I would do something which I might regret later.

I kept on drinking for God knows how many hours and no one disturbed me after that one time. Maybe because everyone was aware of my anger.

Serena’s teary eyes, Nathan’s fearful eyes, and my own lifeless form kept on revolving in front of my eyes as I drank the last bottle sitting on the floor in between all the broken glass pieces.

Once it got over, I threw it away laying down lifeless on the cold floor. I didn’t care whether I will get hurt because no physical pain can be as bigger than this mental and emotional pain.

Curling up in a ball, I closed my eyes as tears escaped from them. I didn’t have any energy left in me but all that I had was tears. Because despite not being energetic, I wanted to cry.

Cry so much that there will be no emotion left inside me and that is what I did. I laid there and shed my tears but as I began to drift in unconsciousness, images of my past started to appear in full form making my jaw hardened.

Even in that state, my fist clenched in anger as I saw her face in front of me and before my body stopped feeling any emotion, I just remembered saying the things I always wanted to say.

I wish I never met you!

I wish I never started any relationship with you!

I wish I weren’t a playboy!

And I wish I never went ahead that night.

You ruined me!

You ruined my peace!

You took away my Everything.

You killed me alive!

I hate you, Carolina Rodriguez!!